REIKI INSIGHTS for 11/11/18 :: why I practice

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REIKI INSIGHTS for 11.11.18

For many years I believed that being a yogi and having a deep spiritual practice somehow meant that I would be spared some of the more difficult aspects of this human existence. 

That things like major illness, or financial worries or relationship struggles wouldn’t be able to touch my now super-duper-strong-Kundalini-charged-Reiki-aura-of-impenetrability. 

(I’ll wait while you all chuckle at my naiveté!) 

Well, if the last few years have taught me anything, it’s that no one is spared. 

Doesn’t matter how spiritual, religious, kind, devoted or dedicated you are. Doesn’t matter how much faith you have or how long your daily sadhana is. 

Life is going to happen. 

The good. The bad. The ugly. 

And sometimes, the super ugly. 

When I first woke up to this reality, I was SO MAD! 

Why the heck am I DOING all of this if not to feel happiness, bliss and contentment 24/7?

Why do this stuff if it won’t guarantee that every day is the BEST DAY EVER?????

(Pause for more laughter & eye rolling.) 

I was so angry with this new realization, that one day, I quit. Walked away. Decided I’d be better off if I never chanted a Sat Nam or sat in silent meditation again. 

For about a year I stumbled through illness, disappointment, fear and loss believing I was better off going it alone, without the “help” of the Big U. 

Then illness hit. 

Again.

And this time, with scary new symptoms no one could figure out. 

After a short time of flailing about, cursing the Universe, fate and anything else I could think to blame, I decided to hit my mat and pray. 

Desperation often does that, right? 

And it was then that I FINALLY understood why I practice. 

I don’t practice to keep life’s inevitable ups and downs at bay or even to fix what I perceive as going wrong.

I practice to GET THROUGH the rough times. 

I practice to have a foundation to turn to when the shit hits the fan and I lose my footing. 

My practice gives me grace, strength and hope when I'm fresh out. 

And sometimes, it brings a miracle, too. 

Although I’m still fighting to regain my physical health, my return to the mat - to prayer, to god - has brought me peace of mind, strength to keep going and hope when all seems lost.

It buoys me, lifts me and carries me when I can’t do it myself. 

Look, I’m not gonna’ lie. Of course I wish my practice - and my myriad healing tools - would FIX me and keep me protected from further harm. 

But that’s not reality and grasping for that illusion only brings more suffering.

So, today I’m grateful for the journey, no matter what it brings and for tools to lean on when the going gets rough. 

Tools that undoubtedly make the journey a bit easier to travel. 

If you’re struggling with a health issue today, I’m right there with you! May you be gentle on yourself and your sweet body as you find your way back to vibrant health. 

And if you have a practice, or if you don’t, may you find something to anchor you and give you strength as you carry on. 

I have found Reiki to be one of the most helpful of practices during my health crisis. Richard and I believe in it so much that we send it free every day to anyone who requests it. 

If you think you could benefit from a little daily Reiki boost (hint: you can!), you can sign up at the link below. 

https://www.ascendessences.com/free-reiki-sign-up/

Happy 11:11, friends! 

richard aab